I am the biggest worry wart I know. And ever since I finished school I have been worrying about what I'm going to do with my life. I often forget how many possibilities there are and that life shouldn't be just one straight path to the future. Yet, my brain is cluttered with thoughts and my heart aches with worry. I think it's the feeling of not knowing what's going to happen next that worries me, as if I'm stuck in a rut when I'm meant for more.
I have always done what I was expected to do that I can no longer tell whether what I am want is because I am expected to want it, or if I actually want for my own.
I want to do some soul searching but I don't know where to begin. It seems people always leave to find themselves but what if I'm not ready to leave what I already have?